Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Indecision

I decided I didn't like my blog layout again. I want to change it. It's like when I was younger and trying to name my stuffed animals: I would pick and name, and then later decide I didn't like it. I soon realized that continuously changing their names defeated the purpose of having a name all together, so I stopped naming them because I couldn't stand the thought of having to stick with the name I picked forever.

I'm scared for the time when I have to name my own children . . .

Procrastination

Why am I so good at it?

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Brought back to reality

I recently wrote an article for a local magazine focused on two stroke survivors and increasing awareness about strokes and their symptoms. I was currently wrapped up in the current events surrounding my own life, probably complaining about something, when it hit me: it can all change in a second.

This man was a successful, relatively young, doctor when he had his stroke. His entire left side was initially paralyzed, but he got his movement back. However, he is still struggling to put words together. Suffering from general aphasia, he lost all communication skills. Sometimes struggling to find the right words, he told me he'd rather have an arm and a leg paralyzed than to have lost all speech and writing skills.

Humbled by this experience, I want to try harder to appreciate all the small things I can do everyday, and all the wonderful people in my life. I take my husband, parents, and siblings for granted much of the time, but I want to think about, serve, and show my love more. It sure is comforting to know that I have eternity to spend with them and if something happened to one of them, I could see him or her again. But showing love now sure goes a long way.